Been a while…..

I’m really sorry I haven’t blogged for a while… with my move back to Canada and fixing my computers and network, I kinda got a bit behind on the whole blogging….

Forgiveness and moving on is an aspect in human nature that amazes me why people don’t get what they are!!

How hard can it be to look at someone in the eye and tell them, “I forgive you; it’s okay… I make mistakes too, and I would want you to forgive me too if I did something wrong against you”

Again, it comes back to the principle of doing to others what you want others to do to you.

After everything that my family and friends have been through because of me…. no one has given me a hard time… and it amazes me…

I know I don’t deserve it, but i see what God is trying to teach me and show me….. it’s not about me.. it’s never about me……

I’ve learned a lot through this period in my life… my parents and friends have always been there for me…. no matter what I’ve done…

I’ve hurt a lot of people in the process… unknowingly and knowingly… not because I wanted to, but…. never mind…. the point is, God is helping me move on and is helping heal those wounds…..

I know where I have to be right now, at this moment, and it took a lot for God to show me to appreciate my family and friends…. and to look to Him first….

Don’t wait that long… see now what you have… trust me…. I’ve experienced it first hand, and I can honestly say I don’t want to go through all that again……

Learn to appreciate…. and rely on God…

Trust Him!

Learn to trust…. And He’ll show you the way….

and when you find yourself at the edge of the cliff…. almost falling…

He’ll either catch you when you fall….

Or give you wings to fly…

One things for sure…. He will never leave your side

Thoughts on Home

Yeah, I know I haven’t wrote for a while. Been really busy, or really tired lately. Still am tired. But it’s oaky. Only about 5 more weeks before I go home…. Home… it’s been a while since I used that word the way I am now. I don’t know how it’ll be…. Probably won’t take any time at all to get used to it. That’s what Home is.

Home is where your heart is. That is true… very true… and right now, my heart is in Toronto with my family. A lot has happened and it has made me think a lot. Why did I do what I did? What did I accomplish? Was God honored? Did something good come out of this?

Why I did what I did?- To be honest, at first it was because of a girl. A wonderful young lady who has now long left me… but that’s not the focus…. that soon changed to finding answers in this life… What is my purpose? Why am I going through this? What is right and what is wrong? What is life?

What did I accomplish? Nothing I thought at first…. I thought, how could God use me after hurting so many people. Granted it wasn’t intentional, but I still hurt them… What did I accomplish? I don’t like to brag, but God used me to help bring someone back to Christ. People see me differently. They see I’m not like them.. That I got “religion” but there’s something different. I’ve tried to live a life that shows other’s who God is. I hope I did what He wanted…. after that’s why I’m going back home.. cause I believe my purpose here is accomplished….

Was God Honored? I would be a liar if I said “Yes”… at least while I was first staring out on my own…. I messed everything up! Everything!!! My relationships with my family, friends, and then in the end with my girlfriend. Because I did something I thought was God’s will but really wasn’t- it was my selfishness…. But look how amazing God is: He used my failures to bring good out of it…..

Did something good come out if it? Of course!!! Good always comes out of everything that we go through because there are lessons that God teaches us through them if we’re willing to learn. I learned what it is to trust and depend on God for EVERYTHING literally. I learned how important it is to have and continue the relationship with my Savior. I learned how to Cook … these are just a few of the things I learned….

What else can I say? I just pray that no one has to go through what I did….. it isn’t the most fun experiences… but I hope that you will learn from my mistakes and trust me when I say to trust God with Everything… because I have seen and experienced and tasted of His mercy and grace and love.

Keep your eyes on Him

 

No matter what…. There is no place like Home

No place….

Thoughts on Caring

God has blessed me immensely! First of all with a wonderful family that loves and cares for me despite myself. I’ve hurt them a lot, but they would still want me to come back home; I don’t deserve that, and I am truly grateful for that. They have raised me up and trained me in the way of the Lord that when I grow older I won’t depart from them. They have loved me and provided for me- what more can I ask?

Apart from my immediate family, God h as blessed me with an amazing group of family in the body of Christ. Everywhere I go, His body of believers have always cared for me and loved me and encouraged me. They don’t look at my faults and weaknesses but at the individual. Just tonight I talked to one of my aunties in Christ. The love that her family has showed me and the genuine care and concern for me just amazes me.

All this to say- why can’t we learn to care like some of these people? Why can’t we show the love of Christ to everyone around us? How will people know that we are Christians and that we are different from the world? By our love… the love that God implants and gives us. We can’t show love on our own.. because it’s humanly love… a love that can not love unconditionally because we, as humans, are selfish. But God changes our hearts when He transforms our hearts and minds on acceptance of His amazing gift. He helps us love how we should. 

Life’s not about you. I’ve said that earlier, and I will say it again! Life is never about you… It’s always about someone else. Always!! So when will we get out of our comfort zones and start caring for others around  us? When will we see the needs of widows, and orphans, and the sick, and the poor, and the oppressed, and the needy? When will we care? “If we are the Body, why aren’t His arms reaching? Why aren’t His hands healing? Why aren’t His Words teaching? If we are the Body, why aren’t His feet going? Why is His love not showing them there is a way….. Jesus is the way” (If We are the Body, Casting Crowns)

Will you forget about your life’s problems and care enough to listen to someone else’s

Will you leave what you’re doing to help someone else in need?

(play Prince of Persia for ps3 to understand why I put up this Picture)

 

Would you go out of your way for someone else…

Even if it mean facing danger or hard times yourself?

(again…play Prince of Persia for ps3 to understand why I put up this Picture)