Yeah, I know I haven’t wrote for a while. Been really busy, or really tired lately. Still am tired. But it’s oaky. Only about 5 more weeks before I go home…. Home… it’s been a while since I used that word the way I am now. I don’t know how it’ll be…. Probably won’t take any time at all to get used to it. That’s what Home is.
Home is where your heart is. That is true… very true… and right now, my heart is in Toronto with my family. A lot has happened and it has made me think a lot. Why did I do what I did? What did I accomplish? Was God honored? Did something good come out of this?
Why I did what I did?- To be honest, at first it was because of a girl. A wonderful young lady who has now long left me… but that’s not the focus…. that soon changed to finding answers in this life… What is my purpose? Why am I going through this? What is right and what is wrong? What is life?
What did I accomplish? Nothing I thought at first…. I thought, how could God use me after hurting so many people. Granted it wasn’t intentional, but I still hurt them… What did I accomplish? I don’t like to brag, but God used me to help bring someone back to Christ. People see me differently. They see I’m not like them.. That I got “religion” but there’s something different. I’ve tried to live a life that shows other’s who God is. I hope I did what He wanted…. after that’s why I’m going back home.. cause I believe my purpose here is accomplished….
Was God Honored? I would be a liar if I said “Yes”… at least while I was first staring out on my own…. I messed everything up! Everything!!! My relationships with my family, friends, and then in the end with my girlfriend. Because I did something I thought was God’s will but really wasn’t- it was my selfishness…. But look how amazing God is: He used my failures to bring good out of it…..
Did something good come out if it? Of course!!! Good always comes out of everything that we go through because there are lessons that God teaches us through them if we’re willing to learn. I learned what it is to trust and depend on God for EVERYTHING literally. I learned how important it is to have and continue the relationship with my Savior. I learned how to Cook 
… these are just a few of the things I learned….
What else can I say? I just pray that no one has to go through what I did….. it isn’t the most fun experiences… but I hope that you will learn from my mistakes and trust me when I say to trust God with Everything… because I have seen and experienced and tasted of His mercy and grace and love.
Keep your eyes on Him
No matter what…. There is no place like Home
No place….
